I am so angry at myself for eating dinner just now. I was going strong and then i dont even know what happened. I guess rational me won. but ed is furious. I didnt need to eat. why did i? I am a failure. I am disgustnig. my stomach is huge and i ruined any weightloss progress. but no one can tell cause im not sick enough to have my weight monitored. and i am not losing enough to see a difference. body image sucks. Im so over my brain. I wish it would shut up and leave me alone. I wish I could be in the depths of my ed again so I wouldnt have to think about pros and cons on everything I…
