I am exhausted. I dont know where to start really but i havent written or typed my thoughts in the past few days despite really going through it. I know deep down in my heart that going to res is what i think is best for me in this moment becasue whatever progress im making in outpatient is still not enough to actually allow me to live. everyday i wake up to fight. between meds and restricting, school and work, food, just im surviving, barely. and I guess i feel like somewhere deep down little jaimee at least deserves to thrive. and going to res will giveme that strucutre, reset, boost…
