The cycle is never ending. One round on the cycle should be enough but to the eating disorder, it will never, ever, be enough. I am holding on to things that don’t even need me. They don’t want me. But I want them. I want my life back. I can deal with the amount of hurt that I have been feeling these past few days. Its a lose-lose situation, 24/7. I feel like a fraud, I am a fraud. I don’t deserve to be here in this bed that someone else deserves more than I. I am a fraud, there doesn’t need to be any more of a reason to back this up. Just believe me. I can’t be my authentic self without being…
